Greener Grass

The question of, “When will you ever learn?” seemed to be whizzing past my mind. There's this lesson that I seemed to relentlessly unable to learn. I'm not dumb just at times, can say I'm in denial or I made myself to be in denial so that I can see the grass is actually greener on my side.

Many times I've pulled back so that I can reflect on learning the lesson. However, each time I do so, there seemed to be something or someone that is able to push me forward to see the greener grass. However, that “green part” will only last for a short period of time as after that, I'll start to see something else besides “green”. And that's where I felt I still have not learn my lesson yet again.

Being stuck in a situation that seems like a yo-yo can be tiring. Going back and forth, thinking all sort of things in the mind, really can make one wonder, “when will this ever ends?”. Actually, deep down I know I've made things complicated. It all started with that certain emotion that sparked this complication in which made me to believe, the grass on my side CAN BE greener. But then, I've forgotten, I've been a fool for far too long already.

So, will I ever learn this lesson today? I don't know if I'm able to or not. But seriously, I really wish I'll learn it fast so that I can see other greener grasses on other fields. The field I'm standing on, it's just not my field to own, sad to say.