Flashbacks

At times I'll have flashbacks of things, even as I am sitting down or walking idly. My flashbacks normally are of those things that I'm no longer doing them now but missed terribly. Today, I've my flashback again. Bringing me back to probably 2 or 3 years ago. The time where I was slightly younger and wasn't consumed by much emotions to know what is right and what is wrong. It was the time where many happy things spin out one after another.

To remember back that one scenario that happened a while back made me see that things change because people change. So, did I change too? I felt, I may have changed a little bit. I may be feeling more angst now which explained my minor “confused state” and more emotional because I'm taking things more seriously than how I used to. However I feel, I changed because I care far too much.

It make perfect sense because when I was younger, you won't be seeing me being dreadful or miserable over some things so easily because, I chose not to care and I chose to ignore. Right now, even though I said I'll ignore, I can't entirely do that. Somehow, I've soften and that probably isn't a good thing to happen. I won't be pointing fingers to blame others for my change as I'm sure every individuals change too. It's just if only time could stood still to who we are during the good times, life will definitely be perfect, wouldn't it?

Not to worry, I'm not in my “breaking down” moments. I think I'm searching for what's missing, which I think I know what, and wondering will the missing pieces ever be replaced? Hmm... I like to ponder on things, eh? That's what you get when living in a hollow shell. LoL!