I Still Survive!

Two years ago, an anonymous person came and commented in my blog saying I should seek professional help because of the way I kept on posting emotional and negative entries, which I still do till today. When I told him/her that I'm a strong person despite all my complaints on how suck life is, he/she called me a liar, making me someone who is in denial. I wrote a super lengthy reply to him/her proving that I don't give up on life although life at that moment was damn sucky, because I have dreams to pursue and I'm a fighter all the way. You guys should read the comments as I didn't know I could voice out so boldly! LOL! 

The line that struck out now was this, "I will still hope to read your blogs in 5 years time to see whether you can prove to yourself what you'd said in here." Well, it has already been 2 years and guess what... I still have not committed suicide! I do not have depression nor am I on drugs, alcohol or am anorexic. In fact, I gotten myself a realiable job and I've ballooned. I don't think the dear anonymous is still reading my blog, but I just want to share this eventful incident that happened 2 years ago as it really brings back memories. Supporter and Swee Ping really supported me then! Thanks again, guys! 

I got to admit, 2 years ago I was a real moaner. But, I've grown to shut my mouth although at times I do need to let my emotions out. I've learned that there's no point in complaining as it will just make you more upset. Is either you do something about it or you just accept how things have gone. Throughout last year and this year, the people in my life have started to change as I felt the distance between us. Although it did got me sadden to see such thing happened and I was unhappy for a period of time to see that our strong relationship has drifted apart. I tried my best to be back to how things were, but I guess... you just can't clap with one hand. 

Thus, I've accepted the shits that had happened. I accepted that things change. I accepted that there are things that are not meant for me. Things that I wish so hard to obtain, but they will never come to me. Although I still got pissed at life occasionally, I'm still living it just because.... I'm anticipating for better things to come. I hope one day the people around me would treasure me as I have treasure them so much. I hope one day.... I'll be able to live life to the fullest. 

But right now, I'll still continue to fight. I've passed the quarter life crisis already and I'm thankful that I've survived from that. It wasn't a walk in the park during that time. But, I made it on my own. Building myself up and making myself feel more numb towards life-changing experiences. So, to the anonymous who "predicted" I will be in a slump, I'm glad that you got that wrong.  Because, seriously... I wouldn't want you to be right. I won't change my ways of venting my negative and emotional feelings out here because I don't find anything wrong with that. If that's the way to make me feel better, I don't see why not just continue doing it. :)

I don't know why am I writing this all out at this hour which I should actually be in bed. I guess is the song that I'm listening to now that made me to be in such a "life discovery" mode to write. Anyhow... just to share the bits of my blog's biggest highlight. Not sure whether Supporter remember that time or not. For the first time.... I got 20 freaking comments for one entry! Amazing! Hahaha...