After My Break...

In the end, I got my well-deserved break. I basically went back home and just be anti-social. I don't feel like going out until I've forgotten to tell some people that I'm back. (I only reminded about 3 people). In the end, I missed out on some outings. Oh well, I wasn't socially well-liked, so it's common that people tend to forget me until I remind them of my existence. Somehow I don't know whether to be sad about it or don't be bothered at all. After all, all these years... I've been like that. Oh well, I won't be dwelling on that now.

Before my break, I was literary like a timebomb. A little bit of things can just trigger me off. But now, I'm much more calm. I guess staying home, watching 2 TVB dramas, 2 DVDs do help me to be a much composed person. But, I got to admit, during the first day of my break, my anger was challenged and believe me, it went a little bit overboard. I guess, I stored too much anger for quite a while that, it just blew off. But right now, I'm back to my cool, calm self.

During my break, I allowed myself to be hopeful and start to think of happy thoughts. Well, I was kept delusional for awhile until today, I found out some truth. Of course I was bewildered. And anger crept in. But just only I had a conversation with my friend about anger doesn't resolve anything. I told myself not to let my emotions to overtake my rational thinking. I got to be calm and think of how I should pursue the issue and not to be duped again. I just want to know the complete truth and no lies. But sometimes, when things just seem so fine, uncovering some things like this will just knock of that everthing-is-going-fine-at-the-moment situation. Quite tough.

Oh well.. I'll try my best to uncover what I'll manage to. And about me being anti-social, I wonder whether it comes with the age. I'm not too sure but I feel, I'm too young to be anti-social! But, I admit that there are things that made me the way I am to a certain people. It was me from the past that made this happen. Well, I guess I just need to stick to what I've always been then. *Shrugs* :)