Hoo-ha Monday

Monday morning started off with such a drama that I was feeling so bad. The night before my phone battery was draining out, which I didn't know at all. I suspect there might be application running which I don't know about. So, in the morning, when the time my alarm should ring, the phone was already shut off which resulted me in waking up late. No wonder I feel why I slept so long the alarm still didn't ring.

When I woke up, it was already 10am! I was like... "SHIT!!". I wanted to call my office BUT the phone cannot start. So, I rushed all the way to office. Once reached office, my boss said to me, "Auntie, you're alive!". They felt relieved. Well, while I was sleeping, my boss and colleagues were worried for me as it is not like me to not inform them that I was going to be late. Usually I'll notify one of my colleagues if I'm going to be late. The worst scenario happened was, they thought I was being kidnapped! One of my colleagues said he saw my car in the basement - super blur of him. So another colleague went down and said didn't see my car at all. Then, when my another colleague called me, she can get through the first time but not the times after that. So, led to the suspicion of me being kidnapped. Coincidentally, the day before my colleague was telling us how there was this guy who was bashed up and robbed at Western Digital near LDP. And since I was working the day before and do pass the Western Digital on my way home, it really sealed the whole suspicion. -.- They were so worried, they even called my brother 3 times.

When I got to know all these, I felt so utterly bad! I apologised to all of them. Boss suggested to treat them to tea-time, I agreed but... boss's wife said don't need for me to pay as it was not my fault at all. And another colleague also said, no need for me to pay. So, in the end... the treat wasn't on me. Now, I have to go get an alarm clock! Such a dangerous thing to happen. Even these 2 days when I sleep I have a bit phobia of won't be able to wake up. Sigh! This incident reminded me of the time when my old Nokia 8250 went dead, and I was late for my Chinese spelling test (I had to take Chinese lessons during my college years). I arrived late and couldn't do the test at all. Same case, alarm didn't ring. :(

On a side note, on Monday night, I was quite pissed about something (won't go into details). I felt stupid. But even if my eyes are open right now, I realised I can still continue to be stupid. I just don't know how to be different now. Supporter said people find me useful, that's why they always come to "use" me. So, it's a compliment rather than a negative thing. Looking from that point of view, I must be a hell of a super useful person. LOL! I think being "used" always is alright as I know I will be able to help them here and there. And also, I did do all those free-willingly. :) However, the sad part that I observed is... I'm only looked for or cared for when they need to "use" me. In conclusion, not appreciative. Now, here's where my stupidity lies. I know it happened to me, I still allow it. So, I got pissed. I talked differently. Sigh... I'm still searching how am I to do things differently now, but yet not lose those people. I don't mean to end anything here, just want to make things better. Sometimes, it's hard to know or to see which is real and which is not. Life is complicated, and that because people made it that way. Don't you think so?